God, please have mercy.

protect the lad.

it's just one of those days when you realize that life has been good as hell, thanks to God, but you still can't get a good grasp of your faith because you start to see the big picture of the world, of societies and of flawed religious ideals in the most sickening way. then, you have doubts, if perhaps, you deserve all of the positive things that you have now.

being religious-conscious makes you forego everything else that you have in mind. it keeps you occupied and appreciate life as it is and you start to not give a heck about other things.

but the thing is, i do want to give a heck about other things.

"the name's bond,...james bond"

i was pessimistically impressed by daniel craig's crude language.this is a must watch for all 007 fans.

currently exhausted after the camp.the cramps are killing me.but still,the camp was worth,u just need to pay $50 for 2 jerseys/1 shorts/1 pair of socks/food/refreshments/1 ball/1 trophy/1 certificate.it was fun too.the coaches were former national players.i was clammering for their autographs.at the end of the camp,the organiser held a tournament in each category.ironically,i was promoted to play in the U-14s.despite having the priviledge to play with the big guys,i had hard time defending against them.i was even facing a player who represented singapore in the youth team.in the end i got 3rd.T.T

heartache again and again.i'm not sure whether i cried because of joy or failure.i acheived 240,240 only.i need to look back what went wrong.i need to recall what cost me the marks.despite the congratulaions by my friends,parents.teachers and relatives.i don't feel like it.but it's already over,what to do?never mind.o-levels must get high marks,don't make the same mistakes again.

and congrats to all those who scored high,you guys rox.

PSLE results will be released tomorrow.i wish all of you guys good luck.hope you can apply to the schools you want.

(=

'if you get at least an A* for english,i will be exposed in the streets and buy you two nike or adidas jersey. set ?'-my uncle

muscle cramps can be mighty painful. apparently, because of dehydration and lack of minerals, i had muscle cramps all over my body. i guess i pushed myself too darned much during camp today and the scorching sun made it insane. my mother was such a darling when she literally did everything for me with all the hardcore cramps that really made me scream in pain.

i suffered muscle cramps all over my body so i'll take time to cock about which of the many muscle cramps was the most painful and ummm...like some mature boys would say, gay:

neck: not that painful and easy to recover.

shoulders: painful, annoying because you have to stand and hard to recover

arms/biceps: painful, comes along with shoulder cramps, your whole arm feels like it's gonna topple off and absolutely hard to recover

hands: not that painful and easy to recover

chest: not that painful but it affects the lungs and heart making it difficult to breathe. hard to recover.

abs: painful, sharp pain at the abdomen and hard to recover.

groin:excruciating. the most painful and gay-est.

thigh: identical as the groin cramp. it gets crazy when it combos with the groin cramp.

calf: i'm immune. haha, used to it. easy to recover.

foot: not that painful and easy to recover.

toe: not that painful but hard to recover.

i still have them every half an hour or when i position myself awkwardly.

-.-

i'll be goin' to the annual soccer camp tomorrow.well,i hope some of my friends last year will be back too.last year,we have our own 'agu casmir'.hope he'll be back too. ok i'll be back tmr by 4pm. so bye...

i really need to stop eating chocalate donuts and get back to jogging.

took three hours to sleep, sleep,sleep after sc camp.didn't sleep that much yesterday in the classroom.and the camp was certainly fun despite my hp was confiscated because my councilmates were playing with it.but never mind,i really enjoyed the camp that even mr menon wanted to be like us.and ,he card which my councilmates write abt me,i'll keep it.i will always remember you guys.

hey guys,here's the photos i took.actually i still have more than this.it's too sad to see all of you smiling together for one last time.without you guys,i never know what will be.i cannot live without you guys.i prayed to God that hopefully you guys will succeed in your future (:

Rock On !!

sarah made my day.

full stop.

scummy man...my mood was spoilt by a bunch of idiotic,pathetic and stupid scums who i believed they should not exist in the world.they like to spoil everything in life.

fortunaely,it was shaufy who saved me from great depression.

he rocks my world hard.

today i have to referee for the p4s and p5s for their games day.tired man,run there...run here.whistle there...whistle here,complain there...complain here.sigh.but with all those negative momets.i find it quite funny to see the them play.i recalled camille saying that the p4s played like zombies,p5s played like mutants and the p6s played like real humans. (:

well there was certainly some misunderstandings from the students and even by the teachers.at least the teachers care.thx to the instructors,they saved my @$$ big time.

yea,they rock my world.

so the cdac organised an open house.well,there were games,art contest,gifts and performances by the singapore zoo ,republic polytechnic,njc andf many more.the moment that i was waiting for was the lucky draw.well,it all depends on luck of course.the 2nd prize is a keyboard and a thumbdrive as my current keyboard is spoilt.so i was aiming for that.but in the end i won the 3rd prize which is a small fan.dissapointed,i tried to convince the lucky winner for the keyboard but to no avail.

damn it....-.-

this might seem ironic but i seriously wanna buy robbie william's new album.

"your days are numbered,fadzly."the sentence which came out from my mother's mouth kept ringing in my ear.i just can't help the fact that it's one week left before the holidays.my class will be subtituted by the p5s and they will face the oh so called the most scariest four letter words.all those good and bad moments during the four terms will all be left in the class.and of cos,i'll miss the teachers too.it's just that i'm very sad to be separated from my class. i would like to apologise to all my fellow classmates and schoolmates for all the backstabbing,betrayal,gossips,and other bad things that made you all angry.

like what camille said, cherish it.hopefully we'll still stay contact with each other.now a new challenge ahead arise.so i wish you all gd luck with your future. rock on...

andriy shevchenko,otherwise known as sheva,is this kiev-born guy who stood out in recent adverts for schwarzenbach clothes.i think it's his soccer fame,or his name,or his american background.

or perhaps,his hair. XD

that settles it.i'm putting kiev,ukraine as my top prioriy for the list of places to go to. (:

the loss at the games day finals is still bugging me.i need a counsellor.

"you're still my heart's overkill,nothing has changed"

arghh !!! heartache man.acheived 2nd for tag handball at the finals.so close to getting the gold,so close.sigh.so i can't even finish my record b4 leaving wdp.never mind,i've acheived enough in this school.i will treasure this experience for as long as i'm alive.

finally,my team had made it to the grand finals.thanks to all my teammates.they did so well that we made a remarkable comeback against 6 trusworthy and 6 appreciative.pesevearance is the key to success.the finals will have gd,high class teams.it will be prestige against them.hope my team wins...

Endurance all the way !!!

chelsea lost to tottenham.

nonsense man.so shocking.almost jumped down the building.

shit.shit.shit.shit

had vb training with anderson today.went to the gym and tried a lot of equipments.muscleaches like damn painful ok.coach told me to do 20 rounds.so strict.after all those torturing and muscleaching experience,this girl came to me.

(the girl name is ling ti)

ling ti: eh you just look like fandi in our school you know

fadz: oh,is he hot?

ling ti : no lar,you look better.

fadz : -.-

R Lam's father has an ak-47 gun.he showed me the pics of this ironic weapon and so i took a closer look to inspect.and shiite,they're really real.

oh damn it. -.-

had the bbq at serene's party yesterday with my classmates and other peeps.since it's a farewell party,i had to make it.it was relatively okay although things really got boring after awhile because it was hard to mingle around since most - well, all of my classmates - are chinese-speaking.that's probably one of the reasons why i sometimes felt that i didn't want to come since kesavan and bing zhi are not coming.

and damn , xin lerk is very irritating.

to mr menon and to mrs doris.

thanks for the chocolate.

and i felt rather weird when mr menon gave us the sufficient time to play. maybe a sudden thought of kindness struck him.well, thanks again.