so today, the she-who-must-not-be-named was like, "how can anything come out from nothing? how did things just appear in the first place?" by golly, i am guilty of being quite an ignorant person myself and she had to ask such a toughie. early last year, this dude was the one who preached the life-is-useless sentiments and asked questions like, "why do we live?" or, "what is the purpose of doing things when you die in the end?" she has simmered down a bit over the weeks and now he is back at it again. maybe it is just one of those days when too much thought is set on the world or maybe it is the mundane lifestyle set with the stressful workload. life has been good to me for the past few weeks so i tried to rebutt his arguments as much as i was able to. but dammit, this cynicism on life is contagious especially when things are not going your way. this guy, he is as bitter as much and being bitter is good. it makes you feel like you got a beating by life and you have survived it.

it all boils down to that same issue in the end: the pride and the value of self-importance.

the heats went well for me yesterday. i now need to straighten up my run properly for the upcoming friendlies. it's really awesome to have those muscle strains back with those aches here and there. volleyball with the lads, of course, has always been a remedy and i enjoyed all the hilarious jokes that came with it.

it had occurred to me almost recently that i have everything i want. no negative spell whatsoever and things have been working out quite my way currently. but then, there is still that lingering feeling that something is lacking.well, i am certainly smitten. but i need to consolidate my thoughts properly first because i am more afraid of the scrutiny than the consequences.

that kind of fuzzy-good adrenaline.

announcement: no volleyball training tomorrow. ( 'hooray!' )

so initially today abdu and tian ning entertained me and later on, mary was full of nonsense on msn but who gives a damn because it's been such a while since i talked to them. especially mary, this girl, she mocked everything i had to say about or every issue i had to bring up. i had such a good time chatting with them on msn so much that i was laughing half the time when i was chatting and my mom gave me the what's-wrong-with-you-look when she realized i was laughing at the computer. darn it i love the holidays, it's been such a while since i had time for myself.

here's the current list of songs (in proper order) that i'm listening to during the peak hour car rides or the hibernation shift during the journey to port dickson:

1. move along - all-american rejects
2. dance,dance - fall out boy
3. running away - hoobastank
4. we're all to blame - sum 41
5. welcome to my life - simple plan
6. empty apartment - yellowcard
7. crawling - linkin park
8. five colours in her hair - mcfly

just felt like telling.

and i've got another itchy reiteration.i guess you all might know what it is.

-.-

on a hot day, this would burn me:

10 laps and a couple of 200s with a rented bicycle around the resort XD

and i ate a lot in port dickson. of course, the statement above was inspired by the trip there too.

the wonderful experience:

of teasing, of crying, of coaxing, of warm embrace and of randomness.

okay so i had received my result slip for term 1 last friday and i did quite fine but not up to my standard. T.T i guess my niche are still science,history,geography and literature. sigh. i need to buck up on my mathematics so i decided to recap on the topics during the holidays.

okay so i managed to clean my room up after a busy month and found stuff that i have left untouched for centuries which includes my collection of cool toy watches. some were working, some were not and some were already shattered for some apparent reason and i decided to throw those which are pretty much spoilt. i will get the batteries replaced soon and i will again rule the world with my ever-awesome watches

and oh yea , happy birthday kesavan !