life's a bit better today, thank God.

alhamdulillah.

no more uncalled circumstances, i hope.

i'm being pessimistic of how tomorrow's day will turn out.well, i am guilty as charge for any circumstances.

while plain white t's "lonely september" is playing on my radio, let's fool around and be silly with that kinder bueno personality of yours.

and so today we won by a mere 3-2 score in a 5 set match.quite disappointing i guess for our standard.

ok, ok my team was over-confident but heck, not bad for a first friendly.

the match against hci tomorrow is crazily anticipated. i seriously don't want to lose on their home ground especially when facing an old friend of mine. with mr singh watching, pride is definitely at stake.

i nearly dreaded to participate in the bishan scrabble challenge after having cramps because of my addiction to playing volleyball but it turns out otherwise because of my great opponents.i also met a lot of my former opponents from the previous scrabble competition held at st patrick's school. my brain went bonkers when playing against ex-national champs marsiling sec and the tiles decided to fail on me quite a lot. the thought of losing a great number of points pains me greatly because i need to help boost up the morale of my team (mostly because my team were losing) and it was the finals. but in the end our school achieved the fairplay award.my sick brain was well soon after resting so i was glad and decided to practise playing scrabble as much as i can hoping that the game won't give me anymore heartburn during competitions in the future.

"eh, i lost to huixiang ok."

i see similar cases, deliberate or not and i can't help thinking how incredibly wretched ignorant actions can be. the thing is, most these actions are done for a reason and looking at the circumstances, i'm inclined to think that these actions are indeed justifiable.

today, my good friend realized that he don't know what he wants to do with his life. he has kissed his key to his future plans goodbye with another unattainable ambition, one extra failure of his if you want to put it that way, that he has been hoping to achieve. this blows his butt off big time. it doesn't help that the guilt is piling up in the religious sector. i question life and God as much as i question the bush administration and when he do come to his senses, he'll be like, "what the heck, i've wronged myself. i've wronged God." but that is only during a short span of time until he return to his damn-all state of mind. He's pressured by society's inclination to value conformism and this makes him want more material things when he has achieved what i want.

dammit, his confidence is maybe just a pretence because, heck, he's actually very vulnerable.maybe me too.