i see similar cases, deliberate or not and i can't help thinking how incredibly wretched ignorant actions can be. the thing is, most these actions are done for a reason and looking at the circumstances, i'm inclined to think that these actions are indeed justifiable.

today, my good friend realized that he don't know what he wants to do with his life. he has kissed his key to his future plans goodbye with another unattainable ambition, one extra failure of his if you want to put it that way, that he has been hoping to achieve. this blows his butt off big time. it doesn't help that the guilt is piling up in the religious sector. i question life and God as much as i question the bush administration and when he do come to his senses, he'll be like, "what the heck, i've wronged myself. i've wronged God." but that is only during a short span of time until he return to his damn-all state of mind. He's pressured by society's inclination to value conformism and this makes him want more material things when he has achieved what i want.

dammit, his confidence is maybe just a pretence because, heck, he's actually very vulnerable.maybe me too.