okay, i'm pretty busy these days. this week has been especially tiring and i kinda slacked for everything. my assignments are due and yes, i have not been updating.

right, today hammered me bad with multiple assignments. it was merciless, really and i paid for it. i was mad with the rest of the day but luckily volleyball kinda put me up to the okay-mood. monday was fine, i guess. and so was wednesday even though we won clementi woods sec in a friendly and so was thursday which was yesterday. i can't even remember the sequence of scenarios that happened these past few days. all i know is that it has been pretty hectic even without soccer.

tsk, i dont know the motive of this post. and i'm tired.

i've been literally shitting my butt off, been having abdominal pain and i've made my toilet bowl the new place to muse and to read because i have diarrhea or something ever since i came back home from the wedding on sunday. but i persevered enough to catch up with the badminton outing, volleyball friendly against clementi town on nuetral ground and training. oh with the form of accumulated homework too.

i would like to have it casual, relaxed and a twice-a-month kind of affair of movies and lunches and dinners and such. the sensation of the truth should be there of the real deal of like and love. surprises, names, possessions or ownership of things, , hobbies, jokes should be exchanged now and also be prominent. constant denial would hopefully disguise everything and to show that certain happy humility. oh, and sports.

also received my class photos today. i can't imagine how gay me and the rest of the guyz people looked. anees, larry, me, gerald and zakrie showed our hitler attributes in the photos.

thank god for the arrival of the clas tee. never mind the critics guyz

yesterday's national day concert cum parade was awesome.i seriously think that 1/1 should have our own rock band as we are one tree with many branches, one class with many talents :P.and we did perform as a rock band during the sec 1 orientation campfire.thus, in the spirit of going back to the roots, influenced by the rock nicknames, our band will be called as ROCK 101.

the band members are:

me- drums
adriel- guitar
deepak- keyboard
ivan- vocals

and so my publicly proclaimed ambition to learn how to play the guitar and drums was heavily criticized by a few people who assumed my hidden motives is to woo girls.i guess, it is wrong to want to be musically inclined. -.- hehe

also, as a patriotic singaporean,

happy 42nd national day singapore.

a coincidental rendezvous when,
i saw her as a pair,
ammunitioned myself with a smile;
getting ready.

she saw me,
glanced at me (or at least i think she did);
we were a few steps away,
to meet,
to greet,
to maybe say 'hello'.

and we were parallel to each other,
her face looking away,
i pulled the trigger,
in such agony,
just to get shot by oblivion,
disappointed.

as much as i'm happy for her and her significant other, i can't help feeling guilty when i thought about how much of a big jerk i was before. yeye should really take a vacation.

sorry guys, i've just been busy.

to describe today, 4th of august , saturday, in the most simplified manner, like how ivan tan would have described it in a few words:

"it's been emotional."

and i'm still actually quite SICK.