so there i was sitting on my bed engrossed
in the middle of my thoughts on the things that i prepetrated
on that fateful day.
look at the clock, its five.
i switched off the lights, then the screaming radio
and laid in bed pretending everything's fine
tired, my eyes closed.
i'm happy to be alive as the sun shines
i am a student and a sports enthusiast.
still loving short hair,ruggedness and intelligence.
pride is smart.ego is king.
it doesnt help the fact that my name is 'fadzly'.
Angel from the nightmare
AND-VB/ASC 2008
i wanted to talk abt this yesterday but was too lethargic so i mustered enough motivation to blog about it today.the fight was semi-planned,a fluke. i totally was looking forward for the moment and i thought that the whole thing would contain its falsity but it happened just nice and appropriate.here's for you all to recap the event.(im trying to remember it vividly ok)
i went out outside the classroom, waiting for ms lee's signal by sending me a SMS to start the fight.everyone went outside and wondered.abdu had started to flirt with the girls and started a conversation.
pohseng: "why is everyone standing outside?"
arvin: "i don't know, i think he (me) is looking for ____!(chuckled)"
me:".....-.- "
abdu was like trying to stall the girls in the conversation and waiting anxiously for my signal.I saw ms lee left the staffroom and i knew the time was right. so i started with a budge on abdu, accusing him that he's flirting.
me:" abdu flirt ah! (nudging him)"
abdu: "eh, where i got flirt! you also flirt wat! (a push in the shoulder) "
me: "eh walao relax la! just say u flirting la. don't need to be so pumped up wat."
me and abdu started shoving each other.we were both infuriated by each other that we wanted to tear each other apart.then our 'hero'(ivan) came in and separated us to stop the fight abruptly.ivan wanted to punch abdu but held back.
ivan: "eh eh! stop fighting! (he blocked me aside and threatened to punch abdu)
abdu: "eh you tall you think you big i scared isit?"
(larry were involved and held me back. i sorta like retaliated and ignited the flame in me but ivan was so big size!)
abdu kicked my table and left the class with the rage of his black face.i, too, left the class to sorta cool down after kicking a chair.both slammed the door.( i wanted to laugh when i leave the classroom but larry and some followed me and consoled me.so i still have to sustain my role.thxlarry !ahaha)in the other scene, abdu was followed by lekha so he whacked and kicked his locker to control his laughter.
pohseng told everyone to settle down since ms lee entered the class already.me and abdu were like wearing the faces of " if you touch/disturb/talk to me, i'll have a hole drilled in your pathetic skull."ms lee (she was the director of whole thing) felt there was tension in the class.she asked boon how, who was assumed to be the honest boy in class, to inform what had happened.
ms lee: "boon how, tell what happened just now?"
boon how:" oh nothing happened, nothing happened( with the innocent smile and descent look)."
ms lee: "kevin and gerald, as a member in the student council, tell me the incident"
kevin: "i was in the toilet"
gerald: " yes, i followed him too"
ms lee: "harshaana?"
harshaana: " i was sleeping."( the fight was like just beside her desk)
ms lee: " abdu and fadzly stand up. what happened just now?"
we traded accusations towards each other and were told to sit down.the whole class seemed to be traumatised and fear tinged their spine and feelings.then, ms lee was on the verge of scolding me and abdu.then she laughed hysterically, she told the truth that the fight was just a staged performance for our situational writing.i can't believe that you all really fall into our trap ahaha. everyone was like 'walao! make me so traumatised.'
it was funny seriously.when our hero came, i wanted to laugh.it was expected that ivan would come to the rescue.everyone did not expect me to erupt and my table was empty so abdu can kick it.i'm very proud of the class as we stand united to protect our friends even if they are in the wrong.i know that this is not funny for some of you but just ask my classmates how they reacted to the incident.
well yea to those people, we greatly apologised.haha just wished that it was recorded using a video cam or something so i can look at your faces.hahaha
love you guys and till then...
you inspired me.sweet inspiration
the guy speaks 6:15 AM
Tolonglah, dengarlah, rasailah
Jangan dijatuhkan mukaku
Bangunkan aku
Aku kebasahan, kelemasan
Dalam indahnya hitam
Fikirkanlah aku ini
yang inginkan kepastian
Kuingin bersamamu
Selalu bersamamu
dan aku tunduk
Kucup semua itu
Berilah aku hujan
Basahilah hati keringku ini
Hadiahi aku mutiara
mutiara.sweet inspiration
the guy speaks 5:41 AM
Saturday, February 23, 2008 2:00 AM
*snores*
i would like to apologise to those people who were contacting me all night yesterday.i wanted to catch up on my beauty sleep which is getting diminutive nowadays. i've been playing like crap for the last two trainings and it's because of fatigue.tournament is coming in three weeks time so i have to get mentally and physically energised.oh yea, and i need more bananas.bananas are goooood...
another short review of this week.
i miss the performance of the support for singapore's yog bid.especially ivan, it gives him horns as well.figuratively.haha
just finished maths test. *yikes*
i am still exhausted.
happy belated birthday seri.
body aches.
her is positively unpredictable.*grin*
the wound hurts.
am quite satisfied with my malay but is extremely happy with my geog.
busy,busy week.expect for another one next week
outside.sweet inspiration.
the guy speaks 2:00 AM
Thursday, February 21, 2008 6:43 AM
"the most important thing in the olympic games is not to win, but to take part, just as the most important thing in life is not the victory, but the struggle"- Pierre de Coubertin
the guy speaks 6:43 AM
What an exciting day for Singapore today! The atmosphere is damn awesome. Yeap, Singapore had been announced to be suitable to be the host city of the inaugural Youth Olympic Games in 2010.(nodding head in benign amusement) I was skeptical about the whole bidding process but after reading the announcement to you guys this morning, I felt patriotic. I believed that the government had done a great job due to their commitment and determination. I guess this whole thing is essential for bringing the world’s youths together in a harmonious spirit of sharing and learning the new relationships from diverse background.
I felt that there is no greater joy found in the effort of coming together as a country, knowing that we have given our best in the whole bid process. singapore has become more notable as a small antion with big ambitions.
And what came to my mind was the games that we played, i felt that it can educate youth through sport in a spirit of friendship without discrimination. It gave me a feeling of how Olympic games infuse these qualities. overall, today’s event helped to sum up the whole day as we had our last common test today.
just go against all odds.sweet inspiration
just go against all odds.
the guy speaks 6:00 AM
"i have my reasons,if only you knew."
heck la, i'm weak.sweet inspiration
the guy speaks 5:51 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 3:57 AM
another day with another problem.it's sickening and tiring to receive lots of conflicts that mounted every now and then and i am the one who has to make the proper justifications. people start slurs significant enough for everybody else to start wondering and make more assumptions about the current situation. my take on the issue is simple: you should never make comments about a certain person and you started to bombard your anger towards us.like's it's unfair. (well, nothing is fair in this world anyway) this is ridiculous.no, you are ridiculous. well we're to be blamed for not having your tweeny political mindset of yours that we didn't treasure you properly. fuck, who the heck cares anyway? your way of communicating people was not at all amusing as i found it irritating but tolerable.
as much as how infuriated and annoyed to solve this conflict, i decided to not pursue to the matter as i guess it's just a waste of time.i think it's best that peace is made. one thing's for sure, the community will never see each other the same way again after the recent episode. but hey, who the heck cares? i never did pay attention to the people to start out with.so why bother?
so who's side am i on? i think the answer's obvious.
(sorry if you don't understand. i just want him to not thinking that not all people has high dignity or self-esteem.so just be part of the community and play along.)
too little already. sweet inspiration.
the guy speaks 3:57 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 2:14 AM
a day filled with condescend and contemptous buggers.
i have no idea why i did not bother.i should have shown my true nature.
but nah, my religion emphasises on calm and composure.
patience is a virtue.
till then.
drained and dreary.sweet inspiration
the guy speaks 2:14 AM
Friday, February 15, 2008 5:49 AM
"you are important to him as a fren,and that's the way he likes you.
you are almost his 'everything' ,you always there to guide him,
his world may comprise nothing but you.
he really do wish that you can be his close friends but there's limits
love has sufferings, torments, stress, agony, pain
it starts happily but ended sadly, disoriented.
but best frens are always happy together.
best friends spend each moment together
supporting each other when they rise and fall
no calamity or whatsoever.
doing things side by side, the feeling of togetherness.
my previous cbox ceases function as of today for some popular reasons in my class during ce lesson.bleargh.. well, some bunch of bitches obliterated my blog by commenting on explicit and racist issues.-.- to hell with those people. yea yea, i know my class has some crappy devils.but i think this is what binds us together.hilarious laughters that i felt an acute pain in my stomach.the black revolution rox! (damn, i'm a racist)
note to bunch of bitches: May the reaper salivate your soul. (the reaper is not handsome, larry!)
crap.sweet inspiration.
the guy speaks 2:01 AM
Saturday, February 09, 2008 5:15 AM
" whenever i want you, all i do is dream"
aiye, i think i have another itchy reiteration to tell you.hah
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thinking of you under lunarlight.sweet inspiration.
the guy speaks 5:15 AM
went to mr wong's place and his place is like a kid's dream which you can have all you want manz.he has a ps2 and a nintendo Wii or something.glad to see quite a number of people there to enjoy the so-called exuberent event.an impulsive day as i see it.nobody actually wanted to go back as we were let free and high.i will now indulge myself in Winnning Eleven and ProEvolution Soccer to battle with mr wong the next time i played against him.it's very agonising when you can actually beat ur opponent but in the end your opponent leaped into a loophole and defeated you.bleargh... the visit ended up in tight laughing in our stomachs. and i got an ang bao!hah to those guys who are concerned: you are the best! happy belated birthday yan ting!
"I've been down and I'm wondering why These little black clouds Keep walking around With me
It wastes time And I'd rather be high Think I'll walk you outside And buy a rainbow smile But be free,they're all free"
[Sweet Inspiration]
the guy speaks 5:00 AM
Thursday, February 07, 2008 6:51 AM
Breakfast without coffee is like a Predator without ammo.haiya...
let's pour coffee on each other! sweet inspiration.
the guy speaks 6:51 AM
yesterday's celebration was purgatory.-.-our class had the most number of people wearing ethnic costume! *yay* my classmates were amusing during their performances, especially arvin. He danced like a pro! had a mini-reunion dinner with my paternal family at JB which sums up the whole occasion.
i'm dreading the long weekend cos i will not be able to see her. noooooo...
wish you guyz happy holidays.
gong xi fa cai!
4 days. sweet inspiration
the guy speaks 5:45 AM
Saturday, February 02, 2008 8:54 PM
whoa. it's been awhile. school has been bloody tiring. they were right. time does bullet through yourself in secondary school. volleyball has been tedious and very draining to a huge extent that i now spend more time on my bed every weekend. their fitness-based training regime kinda got me into a loophole. i never enjoyed full-scale stamina training but now, it's necessary, i guess.
okay a little summary of stuffs:
happy belated birthday timothy!
enjoyed my first o-level drama lesson with a great bunch of people.
arvin showed how he was a horrible secret keeper.
i grazed my leg badly again.resulting in another scar.ahaha
exhausted
people are still asking me whether i had plans on v-day. -.-
okay, maybe i'll speak a bit. her has been nice to me for the past few days. captivating me with laughters (:
these voices are just something the God has given us to guide your way through.they can be a blessing in disguise.a motivational support to drive you to improve.that's my point of view cos i've been hearing them as well through our telepathy. hah
everything's goin to be just fine. sweet inspiration.
