i am still feeling the after effects of the incident. probably that's the reason i'm not ready to be talking about anything to you guys. disappointed myself again and i still cannot find the right thoughts to it for now. thanks to those who got my back. could not take it without you and i'm not emo la dey!

never again i will escape from reality.

"We took a back road, we’re gonna look at the stars.
We took a backroad in my car.
Down to the ocean, it’s only water and sand
And in the ocean we’ll hold hands."

i enjoyed the rain today.

will miss you, sweets.

anger coursed through my veins. i didn't give a damn. i ran 12 rounds non-stop even though i knew i could not take it. i was breathless and my heart is wrenching. i still continued.a sudden rush of blood to the head that subsequently blinded me for a few seconds. i went to the side and fell down.i looked up, my world is darker. the sun is dismantled and no light can help me navigate the darkness. my dad came and revived me. cold sweat dripping is like the rain flooding my mind. i was lucky to be alive but faith was not there. overworking your muscles is not awesome after all. strained my calf-muscles on both legs that i can barely walk. but that is nothing compared to a nightmare.

i'm guilty.

"So I,
I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie"

the boy woke up and became volatile.he toppled and kicked the chair first thing in the morning.

defeated punggol sec for the first time in anderson history! *let out wild primal scream*

although we played catch-up for most of the game, we were unburderned and redeemed ourselves when coach was howling at us horribly. -.- oh well, next match against yishuntown ( hear that sarah!). this win is a confidence boost for all of us and we have to be a constant threat if we want to probe the other teams.

the thought of you changed everything.haha sweet inspiration

ok i'm pretty busy these days. this week has been especially tiring and yes, i have not been updating.

lost to xinmin by two points. it was a freaking tough match

the losing feeling is an absolute downer. it can get frikkin' frustrating, really and there's nothing anybody can do about it. yes, events of your cca affects you. andnot getting first of the tournament is just unthinkable considering our training regime. you sacrificed your time and you'd expect to win something. maybe we were not united or cooperative enough. or maybe, the drive just wasn't there. i hate the anxious feelings i tell. i will surely lose focus and stumbled drastically. bloody anxiety

next match is against punggol. it's never over. etched youself into the game and never fall back. exude the true aura of our abilities. stick to your words and don't leave our mission behind.

i'll swear the next team dies.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVAN TAN ZHI XUAN.

MAY YOU ALWAYS BE OUR CLASS CARPET (:(:(:

the holidays are just a downward spiral to fatigue and it surely caused my lacklustre performance against ang mo kio sec.yes,we're athletes but athletes do need rest right?never mind now, more poeple to prove them wrong.and more reasons for me to work harder.tournament's coming and i cannot wait to end it(and win it.)

went to meet-the-parent session and i was hoping for my dad to not lose my face in front of mr wong.mr wong managed to convince my father that i'm not that kind of student who sleeps in class or whatsoever.so it all boils down to the same issue: catch up with your sleep la fadzly!next time i have to wake up without having eyes stoning like the ones in resident evil(but more cooler!) haha.

school's starting and i must remember to taupok ivan.anyone care to join?

the warm feeling.sweet inspiration

"In the movies
Each moment is preserved
We see a glaring focus
Of the triflings we fail to notice
And those glances are savored
Impinging upon our consciousness
Readymade art like items
Rauschenberg would be glad
For us to taste
Each second moment
Here we go
The movies have set us free."
-Denis Kucharski

currently she's not very enthu.

argh, what was i thinking?!

yesterday was such a long day.but my exhaustion was overwhelmed by teh atmosphere and of course, 2/1!ivan's mom gave me and some peeps a lift to harbourfront which is great!thanks!i was fervently praying to reach the destination in time for some obvious reasons.boarded the bus and mezmerised by the glittering blue sea and heavenly sky.

location:SENTOSA!!*shout like tian ning*

location:tanjong beach

we were like nervous for the race to commence so let's take soem pictures shall we?

waiting and waiting and waiting....

ivan,larry and me fooling around.(larry's hand so big!)

abdu is so cool being the thorn among the roses.ahaha

anju,nadiah,harshie,tian ning and anees."mr wong,tian ning is being hyper again!"

location:somewhere in the tentage after the race.

smiles from 2/1... contestants for Miss 2/1:carey and dai qian

prize-giving...

colleen!
lekha!

boon how!

hmm i wonder who is that guy?

tian ning!

what can i say?
2/1 rocks.

my motivaitona works right?haha.not to mention that i'm beaming to the extent.

1)Sec 2 Champion Class for Cross Country
2)Frisbee Champion
3)Tug-Of-War Champion(our 2nd title!)

we were cruising through all the games.using every cell of you body to give your best.

yes yes.but i have to say we were putting pressure to ourselves to destroy, not to enjoy.if u go into the game and said,"i must win!".well, you're terribly wrong.i assure you that if you have that kind of mindset, you will never win.enjoy and have fun! nothing can stop from energising yourself to have a good game with pride and sportsmanship and lessons to be learnt.on another note, blaming your teammates will only deteriorate your team morale as a whole.almost those people with pride and ego(like me) will tend to blame others instead of blaming themselves.like i said, have a recap and understand your loss.i was bloody mad that we lost to 2/4 for captain's ball and beach soccer respectively. it's like you had your chance and you blew it.wasted. anyways, we were freaking great juz now, cheering and supporting , going through all the setbacks throughout the whole day together.thanks 2/1, this is one of the last best days spending with you guyz!never forget those days.

what really got me surprise is the cross country.the overall route was ok i guess and i was more confident in running all the way.the first thing was the fact that i'm challenging with competitors who supposedly dying to beat me.the are potential winners and i respect them.efficient people i would say. the positive thing is the fact that it gave me a kind of positive competition. i'm not gonna lose out on these 'idiots', i thought to myself.as a whole, i thought it would be a crash of egos but everyone support each other before and after the race, making the race less pain for us. especially our 'clubsters' gang.we seriously crapped alot.zhuo sheng was able to make it to the top 20, larry for top 3 and don't forget boon how our man.2/1 all the way!

haiz, now i'm bloody tanned and i seemed to be enjoying it.

i guess that i won first place because of the shoe i wore.a lucky charm from all you guyz who paid for the shoes.

the trophy is nothing more precious than your heart.the most suitable prize is you, my sweet inspiration.

When the team’s structure is understood by all team members, individuals are better able to operate in their own roles. Each team member understands their roles and responsibilities, which can be motivating. When the structure of a team is not understood, or when a leader is not defined, there can be a clear lack of motivation. Appointing a leader that understands how to motivate individuals on the team can lead to team success.
When asked about why a team was successful, most people will say that a clear focus, purpose, or goal was crucial to the success of the team. When working in teams, there is often a division between team goals and individual goals. Challenges occur when individual’s goals don’t line up with those of the team. Often, the discrepancy in team and individual goals is a leading cause of lack of motivation in teams. This lack of motivation can lead to interpersonal conflict within a team and/or conflicts of interest. Determining clear and focused goals early on will help prevent lack of motivation in the future.
In order for a team to be motivated, each individual on the team must be motivated. Team members are dependant on the structure of the team to help determine their individual roles and responsibilities within the team. Without clear direction, often times, team members lack motivation. When individuals are not motivated, the team is not motivated. In many cases, individual competencies and knowledge is vital to success. When team members are unsure of their individual roles and responsibilities, often times, knowledge will not surface that otherwise would have.

2/1 ooosh!!

right.all is well.results for CA1 are out and i'm glad to say that i am impressed with myself.not to mention that i thought i will do extremely bad.so here are the grades:

English:B4
Mother tongue:B3
Mathematics:D7 (okay kill me.)
Science:A2
Geography:A1
History:A1
Literature:A1
Home Econs:A1
Visual art:B3

bleargh,yes i suck.i would like to thank ALLAH for everything. the hardwork and determination must be there if i want to become an 'anees/zhuo sheng/wai ken/tian ning'.hope things turn out well after this.

shy love.sweet inspiration

i'm bored and feeling low.i've searched on some team motivation for my class.go 2/1! we'll never walk alone!

So as we attempt to understand motivation, we need to appreciate the subtleties that exist in human behavior, and focus our attention on general principles of motivation that have wider application. At least if we can understand some of these principles, we might be better prepared to lead or facilitate a long-term, highly motivating team experience.

a team that shares knowledge will become motivated while expanding their knowledge. Take away the sharing of knowledge, the team will no longer be a team, members will no longer be knowledgeable and constructive motivation will be gone.People who share knowledge will increase their knowledge while motivating others. People, who only take orders, learn nothing. People, who only give orders, inspire no one.

so go guyz!give out your best!more motivattion will come soon.

"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination."

"those are just words.enough said"

that's my 6 (six) words story. figure it out yourself.

"for you, a thousand times over.but i'm pursuing something futile, isn't it?"