(cough, cough)

okay so council camp were two days of fun. really enjoyed it. they didn't disappoint me at all. right, tops on the list of the talk-abouts would be the supposed scandals. who would have guessed that the camp would turn into a dating camp. whatever it is, the conspicuousity of the different couples are seen. hah. *grins* i won't mention names but i think it's kinda sweet to get together.

the amazing race was damn weird. all the tasks are very troublesome but there were some educational values hidden.(well, for some of the tasks.) and i didn't know finding a kid to sing nursery rhymes would be fun. when were at the final task, it rained heavily. so what? no guts no glory. we immediately dashed through the rain when the green man was flashing but when we reached the traffic light, it was red man already. -.- the final task was to help an elderly and made him say thank you. some were very pissed off and reluctant but we have to be patient lor. gerald was like sauntering after the task and we had to drag him along. and my group arrived first la walao. we were the 3rd last to start the race because of some unforseen circumstances (hmph). our hard work really paid off. then was O.T.O.T (own time, own target). played badminton and bathed. then we watched a horror movie called 'boo'. i sat beside zhe shuo and we were discussing where are the links of that scene and this scene, how violent will it become, will the eyes pop out, heads savaged, which organ is that and etc. the plot was kinda cool but still quite cliche.

then we were forced to have lights out. everyone were so dreary to sleep early. i brought chipsmore and passed it around. when the councillors came in, we pretended to sleep. yea, acting was very fun but it's too obvious that we're not asleep. they sat in front of us to check wheher we are really asleep. so i have no choice la that i suddenly went to sleep. in the midst of oblivious dreaming and saliva dripping, i have seriously no idea why the councillors suddenly woke us up by stamping the floor and shouting like nobody's business.i mean, c'mon. i was shirtless and my boxers can be seen la please. ahahaha it was time for the night walk. they stalled us by telling ghost stories and warned about those haunted place and yadda yadda. everyone were anxious and freaked out. so i cracked some silly jokes to fade all those anxiety away. i guess the classroom looked spooky and creepy by the secluded location. i whistled to the tune of frank sinatra's music( which i don't know why) to help cheer up sharmini who was very horrified when i said i saw a figure inside the classroom. the DnT block which was supposdy the scariest part was damn funny. i think sharmini stepped on one of the 'dead bodies' that everyone burst out laughing. then, in the canteen vinod and hafiz were the so called spirits that they threw light sticks at me several times. -.- then we went to the band room and they threw light sticks on my head which was very annoying, disturbing and irritating. they even throw a savaged head at us. waddahell.idiot. after the night walk, people felt that it was lame.

i bonded with the rest talking about the amazing race and nightwalk before going to sleep. the next morning was quite short. we treasure hunt around the school compound. played in different stations and played water bombs. i betrayed alot of people. everything was chaotic.i threw a water bomb at people and claimed someone else did it. so i accidentally started a war as i did that several times. so we took pictures and ran fo our lunch. i miss my group and my night buddies and of course, the organising committee. thanks, guys.

oh, boy. i'm tired. need to re-orientate my sleeping cycle as well. that's it for today. yeah, laters.

playing pro evoulution soccer 6 with larry is fun when you keep beating him. (:

right. so when it rains, it chills. on another note, i caught the common cold.

i was attempting to damage my lungs by attending my volleyball training.and my dad came unexpectedly to watch me play. -.- but for once, he said " son, i think you are a good volleyball player." that is like something that rarely escapes from his mouth. woah, pride is high.

then he asked me,

"have you ever thought of going to switzerland/austria to watch the soccer european championships?"

" if i had a chance, why?"

" we are going there, this holiday."

"you serious? "

" yeah, but it's only for me and your mom. ahha"

-.-

"yea yea."

" but at least, im bringing you to watch singapore vs bahrain tonight."

(:(:(:

watch the whole match at the kallang stadium. the atmosphere at the stadium was awesome. it was nice to be able to experience the verbally abusive nature of the game again. lost 1-o nil but i think singapore tried their best mostly at the dying moments. a few thousands were watching and they were very euphoric. it's hilarious to hear people hauling vulgarities mixed up with their very own dialects. come second half, i was too stoned to enjoy the match because something was missing.

bloody flu virus that comes and goes. unmanly.

felt like putting this up. (: she has lovely accent sia.

ahaha i find this very incredible and unbelievable. quite entertaining too. his name is jalen testerman and he's 6 years old.remember that.i think he is very sweet and adorable. keep it up J styles!

been wanting to post alot about cip today at toa payoh cc but was too tired when i got home. the mini-concert was awesome ,though the dance was screwed.( sorry, guys :P) haha, 'syiok sendiri' . was losing myself in the music mah but had a little 'rocketship to outer space'. the girl's performance were entertaining and spastically hilarious.seri was like dedicating her performance to arvin's significant( not to mention absorbent and pinkish) hanky. i think she really pull if off well. everything went purrrrrrrrrfeeeectly fine. the finale song i managed to rmember 'kan guo lai, kan guo lai' and mumbled the others. hah. credits to 2/2's performance too. they were supporting us all the way manz. so we bid goodbyes and left. i was so freaking late and am not okay with it. (smirks) we really had no energy left already. sigh. oh wait, there's champions league final tomorrow, ok now high. ahahz. blues all d way. (: )

till then. (;
(pictures and videos WANTED)

today was suppose to be a good day with a good book and a good tea and a good weather to enjoy isolation at it's very best.turned out otherwise. and the jog was disparaging after my stints. i can seriously feel the declining difference in my fitness.something was and is still duly amiss.

"You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it"

happy birthday deepakrishna s/o tangarajan!!

though you always taupok me for nothing, you are still my toughest brother. hope you have a great year ahead!

sigh.results are just a downward spiral to misery. though with 5 As. i think this fiasco is more of an achievement. hah i'm so proud of myself XD

the outcome of soccer training was bad. sprained my ankle that it sounds like a cracked egg but it recovered quickly than expected. the outcome of soccer today was the usual cramps and scored four goals. the team is great and fun so it's all good except for some craps. so everyting else now is kinda crap except of course my heavily anticipated weekend because that's the only thing that keeps me going throughout the week. only then can i do my usual oh-i-think-you-gained-weight or oh-i-think-you-lost-weight thing (but seriously i don't care if you gain or you lose weight because you look good either way).

something has been bugging me and i need to spill all out.

to whom-it-may-concern,

my mates told me that i've changed over a short period of time. it was an almost certain decision on my part: i had to change. to be a loser or to be a winner. now, my morale is up on the high and pride is alive and playing volleyball.

i definitely have something to prove to my family, to my mates, to my teachers and basically to society as a whole. i've picked myself up, armed with new strategies and good to go for my daily dealings. my way of living life might change, might be too extreme even but i have to fulfill it in such a manner because i am desperate for personal satisfaction.

and you can perhaps say that i am in fact craving attention.

so yea that's my part.

i hope it's mutual, the feelings of sheer warmth and comfort that are shared, because it certainly has been a while since i had any of it.

it's that fuzzy thing flying around in the stomach like blue butterflies.

*smiles*

i'm feeling: awesome!

today was simply great. training was soooooo fun. didn't expect the degree of greatness of having to smile alot after receiving your results. but MT marks was quite rotten. bleargh...
need to give credits to those who helped me. kinder bueno anyone? thank you, lord! i really wish i could have more of today's experience. boy, am i feeling so joyfully good!

"When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes."

it's sweet inspiration, baby. (;

"Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong."

apologies for being quiet this few days.i'm sory that i've been neglecting you. but i can keep intact with you through our hearts.

and oh yea, carey's party was great seriously. though i missed all the fun earlier, i did get to eat pizzas and played street soccer. and we went home early 'cause we were damn late, mind you. all else is fun and may u have a great year ahead!

"Andai kutahu
MalaikatMu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku
Mengucap kata tobat padaMu

Aku takut
Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut
Dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku
Dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku
Menangisku bertobat padaMu"

everytime i hear this song, i will go all sad. i've been neglecting my mum recently. i'm sorry for all the tantrums that i've done. i'm sorry that i wounded your heart. i'm sorry that i'm not the filial son. all i know is, i love you and you're one of the reasons that i'm standing. thanks, mom.(:

yesterday we had a so-called badminton-marathon. played six hours or so. okay, overworking your body isn't that awesome after all but at least i got my fitness back on running. tian ning created some cool mini-games that are sort of essential for our respective ccas, namely tension and speed.

though it's been weeks since i last played a sport i finally had a chance to be drenched in my own perspiration. need to train more of my jump-shots and defence. my attack is too bloody obvious manz. need to work on that too. so all else is fine, playing with mr wong also got me going. we deliberately showed our gracious attitude towards him that he treated us drinks.

then, with legs almost breaking into pieces, energy drained and bones failing to support our balance, boon how and i dreaded following ivan and tian ning to buy carey's present. -.- then a good conversation with boon how in the train and there i was drowned in the comfortable bed of mine.

we'll be going to carey's birthday party shortly and i can't wait! pizzas, baby. (:

my calf muscles are strained. i can barely walk la walao. -__-

Seven things in your room:
1. bed
2. unplugged tv.
3. study notes.
4. clothes.
5. trash.
6. personal trophies.
7. my PS2 and PSP!

Seven things you can't live without:
1. music.
2. sports.
3. nasi goreng and roti prata XD
4. my glasses
5. certain people.
6. Pride
7. Did i mention sports?

Seven things you want to do before you die:
1. do one thing that can change the world.
2. have a long conversation with my family.
3. be a professional traceur.
4. have my own portrait similar to that of napoleon's.
5. play sports.
6. meet very important people.
7. HER.

riiiiiighht...now for yan ting's quiz.

1. what do you want the most now?
a new guitar

2. do you think you have enough confidence?
for the obvious and not so obvious reasons, yes.

3. if you have a dream come true, what would it be?
hmmm, i don't actually believe a dream would coem true because most of my dreams are really just fantasies but yeah, only some people would know that recently my dream came true.XD

4. what are you afraid to lose now?
uhhh...my confidence and my volleyball skills. nationals are going to start!

5. are you satisfied with yourself?
well, i'm never satisfied with myself cos i want to improve myself in any way.

6. do you believe in eternity love?
let's see lor.

7. what do you like most about yourself?
i like to irritate people. (;

8. who is the person you trust most?
justin tan kai zhong. abdurrahman zaidi and some others.all i know is definitely not larry ahaha.

9. what will you do if your HE/SHE hugged you?
errr....isn't that illegal? lols

10. what kind of ppl do you hate?
i don't really like to detest people.

11. what feeling do you hate the most?
the disppointing and losing feeling that plagued your mind like maggots. maybe jealousy too?

12. do you trust every friendship of yours?
the art of life is to put down acquaintances. one's friends one can manage, but one's friend can be the devil.

13. do you treasure your family?
yeah. stick with your family people.

14. what are the most important things in your life?
Allah.Islam.Family.Education

15. what do you regret most about your life?
anything that doesn't go my way.

16. who do you to be always there with you?
my parents and brother. and certain people.

17. are you happy now?
yeah, because i just ate laksa. whooo!

18. who are the people who have stood by you when you really were at the worst point of your life so far?
i haven't been in the worst point of my life yet.but i'm expecting Allah to be by my side.

19. what kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
be their pillar of strength or anything that i can help to make them feel better.

don't usually do this but it looked like fun, thanks to yanting. besides, its an ego booster. haha. have a go at it, guys.just copy and paste and do it all over again. we'll see what you have come up with.

while chris brown's "with you" is playing on the radio, let's fool around with the kinder bueno personality of yours. (:

i'm loving the week. a few days without teachers or any form of accumulated homework could actually work well for me. i'm not stressed whatsoever. and this few days have actually gave me a chance to get closer to my religious side in almost over a week. just so lovely, the week.