sigh.results are just a downward spiral to misery. though with 5 As. i think this fiasco is more of an achievement. hah i'm so proud of myself XD

the outcome of soccer training was bad. sprained my ankle that it sounds like a cracked egg but it recovered quickly than expected. the outcome of soccer today was the usual cramps and scored four goals. the team is great and fun so it's all good except for some craps. so everyting else now is kinda crap except of course my heavily anticipated weekend because that's the only thing that keeps me going throughout the week. only then can i do my usual oh-i-think-you-gained-weight or oh-i-think-you-lost-weight thing (but seriously i don't care if you gain or you lose weight because you look good either way).

something has been bugging me and i need to spill all out.

to whom-it-may-concern,

my mates told me that i've changed over a short period of time. it was an almost certain decision on my part: i had to change. to be a loser or to be a winner. now, my morale is up on the high and pride is alive and playing volleyball.

i definitely have something to prove to my family, to my mates, to my teachers and basically to society as a whole. i've picked myself up, armed with new strategies and good to go for my daily dealings. my way of living life might change, might be too extreme even but i have to fulfill it in such a manner because i am desperate for personal satisfaction.

and you can perhaps say that i am in fact craving attention.

so yea that's my part.