who's your daddy??

today's our napfa test for the five stations.and two shots of the sweet strawberries.one of which i enjoyed so much.

standing broad jump-232cm
sit and reach-39cm(T.T)
inclined pull-up -40
shuttle run-8.95secs
Sit-ups - 50

4 As and 1 C

hah, pride never look so good.just bow down to me already hahaha

aqilah extraaaa. hah
my shoes.

getting a reply from her was necessary. i guess everything is fine between us. but really, i would never want anything shitty to happen ever again. period. i'll be honest, i won't see things related to her ever the same again. somebody tried to shoot me and i'm not totally happy about it. maybe time will heal everything.

oh yeah, the burning desire seems to be diminishing. questions and questions appear but it's pretty sick. i guess it's those scenarios where things come and go. the first supposed rampage turned peaceful and disappeared soon enough. things are gonna repeat again, won't it?

weird and tiring day today. the course of the day surprised myself positively. but yeah, it's all too darned good to be true.

"And some people fight,
And some people fall,
Others pretend,
They don't care at all,
If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies"

what was i thinking? what was i doing? i need better clues. and hints. demoralizing event. i guess i'm psychologically weak. repercussions to a scenario really snowballed to make the rest of the day bad. so fuck. somewhere and somehow, i'd try to figure out a sign from God. but really, it's pretty vague. one occurance can mean a thousand things.

but i realized that i've been very bad to my siblings. mum talked some senses to me. i was a bit vexed to a huge extent. still, i couldn't actually rebel against my understanding mam, now can i? i think i put too much pressure on my siblings and i'm kinda like a big bully towards them. but that's what big brothers do, right? the world isn't always fair. and i kinda did my part at home so i deserve the power that i have. lol.

"you shot me down as i flew by..."

i'm simply......

JADED.

the week was wrecked.

the wound hurts.

body aches.

life is dull.

oh and she? she's just excellent. in my dreams especially.

"who says that there's love surrounding me? only sorrow sank deep inside me. time makes me closer to reality. and i don't want it."

"I see you fading away from us.
I'll miss you very much.
Room with empty bottles,
broken dreams,
and pride still running high,
always on your side.

But I wanted more for you.
You can't go on this way.
And now I see it all fall through.
We pray for better days."

a fitting finale for my mates after today's win against clementi town. i'm still down because of our early exit from the nationals. but it's okay, i brushed the matter aside and we held our heads high. mr fadzly showed us moral support and his motivation really helps. he treated us pizza and sent me and justin home. woah, freaking cool manz. i tell you he rocks.

to justin, larry, hidhir, wen jie, wisely, dean, yi kai, yu xiang, kevin, ming en, waikit,

though our journey ahve ended, it's a new beginning (like duh) let's osar to greater heights shall we? (:

the temptation's overwhelming but i'm pursuing something futile.

no more.