"every step i take
every move i make
every single day
everytime i pray
i'll be missing you."

to my mom and dad, have a safe trip to mecca (: i will always be there for you.

and you, take good care of yourself. don't worry i won't misbehave.haha

woah, spent the whole day outside yesterday. feeling very jaded and drained. had training in the morning and went to celebrate cohesion day at east coast park. me and abdu went up and down to get there after friday prayers. helped them set up the barbecue while waiting for the rest to come. then stephanie , our fusion head brought a snake board. me, wei jie and small eugene were like practising until we got the idea. try it guys! it's fun! wyatt was so funny. he saw us playing with it and felt mesmerised. he decided to try it and when his foot touched the board he felt like not playing with it -.-. small eugene tried and he was happy that he managed to go by a few cm. hahaha

the amazing race had started. i teamed up with abdu and damian. had a heated rivalry with athirah's group. damn crap call themselves winner. bluek! lols our first task was to do 80 jumping jacks. can see that all the group cheated. some groups like did only 10 and got the next clue already. we chionged to the next station at macs. the task was to go up the slide 10 times. my group and timi's group were the first ones. timi got a brief lead so i decided to do the easy way by running up the slide and go down half way and ran up again. yeah. then we headed to a bicycle rental shop. the next task was to go to a yellow tower and collect a puzzle there. damian and abdu cycled there while i need to sing abc till they get back haiyo. completed the puzzle and jogged to 7-11. oh my gosh, this task is the irritating one. they gave us one huge cup of peach drink and in order to get to the next round, we have to finish everything including the ice. my group took 2 straws each and sucked everything out in the midst of brain freeze and uncontrollable bladder. my stomach was like bloated and about to explode.at least we got a free drink though. we took turns to cycle and jog to a big pond area near our bbq pit. it was something like a treasure hunt.search the things in the list. not that easy actually. we strayed off far away that wei jie need to call us back. finished that task and sprinted to our last station. we have to dig for a printed paper. sandra, daniel and small eugene accepted bribes so they gave us a hint. damian found it but it was torn and tattered.the last task was to find a stranger and took a picture of their buried foot. yeah my group won la basically. eherm, yes ah. haha went to wash up.

the other groups made it and started their bollywood and diva moments by the shores. -____-" since my group won, we had the privilege to throw water bombs at each other. abdu has a problem. his water balloon always got attracted to xiu hui.sad for her man hehehehe. then had the tradition of throwing people into the sea. push here push there. sigh was kinda forced to join in the fun. mr singh came so we had dinner.mr singh and his wife can open a satay shop so that every training we get free satay! chit chat chit chat and jammed with carmina's guitar. was late night already so went home with aqilah and abdu. my legs were wobbly by the time i arrived home. to all fusion mates, u guys did a great job. three cheers u guys alright.





council seniors and fusion mates



sylvia's group forlicking in the sand.

"Letters keep me warm
Helped me through the storm]
But with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now
I won't question why so many have died
My prayers have made it through yeah
'Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you"

reminds me of the soldiers in the war.

'Your mercy falls like rain. please protect them'

okay so when i got home feeling tired, my mum just suddenly embraced me and kissed my forehead. i was touched. i only got 4 days before they go to mecca for their pilgrimage. i just realized how lucky i am to have my parents. my dad, especially, rules to the core. maybe it's because i'm turning 15 and so he gives me the respect that i duely need but i guess he's the man. still fit, he's a police officer, he doesn't smoke, acts shy and has a whole lot of respect for his children, he has all the attributes a son probably needs. woohoo! my mom's the most coolest lady too. she believes in narrowing the generation gap between her and her children and so, she does a lot to blend in. sometimes, she takes it too far but i guess it's all in her good intentions. i have friends to prove that my mom's the coolest. ghaha. i'm so glad the relationship my mom and dad have is true. that's what sticks them like glue. some of my mates, and i'm sorry, have a pretty crazy family affair. i just realized how lucky i was when dad actually offered me out for breakfast just now.

haiz i don't know how i will feel at the actual moment.

anyways, watched madagascar with some peeps. one spastic show. love it to the core hahaha. i think it's not a bad movie with a 2nd sequel. a lot of hidden meanings and wisdom.this movie is different as the way the movie solves the problem in the end so it's not extreamly good or bad although some jokes are quite hilarious. my favourite were the commando penguins. they never fail to amuse me with their nonsensical plan to solve problems. go watch it!

volleyball has been very tedious and very draining to a huge extent that i now spend more time on my bed every weekend. i never enjoyed full-scale training but now, it's necessary, i guess. so i had volleyball traing in the morning today. heard that the c div boys won victoria sch! whooo! great job guys! then meet mr fadz with wen jie, fat kit, larry, justin and wei xuan. damn fun. yeah, with the two jokers around, life never look so glum. when i got home, my whole body aches. muscle cramps can be mighty painful. apparently, because of dehydration and lack of minerals, i had muscle cramps all over my body. i guess i pushed myself too darned much during badminton. my calves are aching like crap now.

so my friend hafiz has this cool playlist thingy and i guess im gonna try it:
1. Open up the music player on your computer.
2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
3. Hit the shuffle command.
4. Tell us the title of the next ten songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That's right, no skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It's time for total musical honesty.
5. If you get the same artist twice, you may skip the second (or third, or etc.) occurances. You don't have to, but since randomness could mean you end up with a list of ten song with five artists, you can if you'd like.

1) tiger lily - matchbook romance
2) my beautiful rescue - this providence
3) all again for you - we the kings
4) skeptics and true believers - the academy is
5) one of those nights - the cab
6) unholy confessions - avenged sevenfold
7) heels over head - boys like girls
8) breathing - yellowcard
9) always be my baby - david cook
10) never too late - three days grace

this shows i ain't gay. get your facts right!

holy crap. it's been a week since i last posted. heh. well, the week's procession kinda discouraged all my longing to rant on this crazy web log. me and my superstitions.

so what went up this week?

first up, my parents flushed me down with food this week. crazy but lovely stuff. a food fiesta of sorts for me. and i love it. haha.the c boys managed to qualify to the next round in the u-13 tournamnet. lucky sia haha

oh i had a bad day today. okay so i was paid to help out in setting up the beach volleyball court at sentosa.i was just digging and digging with the shovel. and suddenly i messed up my foot, the blade literally cut my foot from the top. did not want stitches although my parents were practically worried about me. the cut was pretty deep for that sort of blood disposal. i wasted my blood. geez. i guess its the Lord's way of telling me to start being an angel. fine i'll start being diligent.

and finally, i must say that the everyday dealings with my volleyball clique have been hilarious. spent time with them yesterday and yeah, i guessed i had fun. we talked and chatted and basically slacked our way through. they have some crazy problems and just hearing them rant about it gives me a sense of my-god-this-dude-is-screwed feeling.

and i wanna get paid with more than a hundred dollars for being a hole digger just now. i mena seriously.

ciao (:

"while I recall all the words you spoke to me
can't help but wish that I was there
back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

dear god, the only thing i ask of you
is to hold her when im not around
when im much too far away.
we all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
and now I wish I'd stayed
'cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
i'm missing you again, oh no
Once again"

i went through the old photographs that i found during the cleaning process of the living room. i realized that i was very enthusiastic in taking pictures with all the stupid poses like power rangers , old school hairstyle (i started wearing gel in primary one!), my previously skinny dad and freaking cute siblings when they were three or four. also, it was a huge reminisce of old times with my grandparents.

i saw the photos of my late grandmothers, both my dad and mom's side, and my late grandfather. it's really amazing what you can find out on photographs. i found out that i inherited my nose from my insanely attitude late grandfather who's very msucular, my sepet eyes from my grandmother of my dad's side and my eyebrows from my late grandmother from my mom's side. sadly, it's only facial features that you can determine and not the behaviour or characteristics now that they're gone. it makes you appreciate the deceased and any senior citizens you see around.

i remembered my grandfather who's truly a pain. i heard from my dad he's as stucked up as i am but a little more messed up -.- sheesh. things can really go crazy with him being the star. all my aunts and uncles complain and complain but when he's really gone, it's gonna haunt them big time. old people are suppose to be mean and grumpy i think. my grandfather is an example. and as much as this sounds gay, i love him and he's one cool grandad.

i haven't got the chance to update properly these days.sorry people. training's been tiring, junior volleyball matches here and there. (which i think is very redundant since we had very few trainings to buck us up and considering the fact that we are shuffled into the group of death). very mundane and dull. much needed rest now and zomg it's the holidays.

class chalet was awesome. credits to all for making it nice. i wouldn't have wanted to spend the day with anyone else. oh, mr wong and mr fadz too. they made it more fun. no regrets, no nothing. maybe because it was a busy week. i think it's really just a 5-day volleyball training thing, to make everything fly by silly.

so yeah, i'm gonna eat more as i need more meat on me. and return to the gym to boost me up.spend more time with my family and continue my progress with whatever im pursuing now (eherm). there you go. next week's gonna be pretty crazy for me. looks like this year holidays gonna be wasted again i guess. not that im not used to.