i'm loving the week. a few days without cca or any form of accumulated authority could actually work well for me. i'm not stressed whatsoever. and this few days have actually gave me a chance to get closer to my religious side. just so lovely, the week.

amidst all the stress-free week, i still have a longing for something special. it won't work without any effort, no doubt, but if things are gonna happen, it will happen sooner or later... right? i played my part, questioned my move and thought about the consequences. the thing that can mess everything upside down, my confidence included, would be all the pessimistic and cynical thoughts of mine. i don't mind something crazy but getting demoralized time after time again can get pretty boring sometimes.

i have two bullets and i can only trigger once. sheesh

aaah cramps. can barely kneel down. well, at least you're back.