lazy days like these make me wish i read my book in an open space with clean air.i want to be so much MORE... than just this.
being in the mrt, or bus.. looking at people, makes me feel so defeated.everyone looks resigned to their dull predictable lives.i suddenly felt like i haven't been living for the past 14 years.with that, i felt this surge of courage to make my life,as meaningful & interesting as possible and stop being scared, whatever oppurtunities comes my way, seize it

anyways, i realise when it comes to books, i prefer those with the intricacies of the language. i marvel at the way pretty words are weaved together to beautify a certain scene/emotion/situation.

and music, one of the best remedies that could plummet me out of the boredom and lethargy of the flu bug i'm having.

what picture is this song painting,
i feel it being sad, encompassing everything in blue,
dark, sad and beautiful.

sometimes emotions are better expressed through music,
some things after all can't be explained by mere words.
emotions have no boundaries & words are finite,
it's as if words would taint that pure sound.

my lips were much too shy,the words about you they never rhymed.

"Forgive me if I stutter from all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways a thousand times,
no more camouflage I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall."

bleargh. sigh. life...

this season's chinese new year celebrations are bloody crappy. there were just no atmosphere or mood at all like we always do every year. i was jaded when i went to welcome the elderly people and the news about the arrival of their bus coming in late sorta ticked me off abit. the fusion councillors were bored so we started our fusion circle and played truth or dare. luckily it's quite fun.watching the sec 2s gossip about one another really brought back the memories i had with 2/1. anyways, whatever happens in the circle, stays in the circle. then our beloved guests came and yeah, they were nice. they know how to speak malay so i had a bit of fun talking about the cny celebrations yada yada. escorted them to the hall and watched the concert. i won't say it's dull cos the efforts contributed were a lot and yeah to see your prc classmates perform is quite enriching. the indian dances were funny. and it did bring up the mood. after that i was getting restless. bleargh. went to friday prayers, had lunch and back to school for training. the team's self-esteem looked plummeted. it's like most of them found it meaningless to have training on that day. so yeah, everything went dull already. i observed that when you were younger, you loved these festivities but now, it's just some ordinary day. geez.

oh something reminds me,

Don't be so scared, we will not lead you on like you've been doing for weeks.
So you're selfish, and I'm sorry.
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast
Nowhere fast, nowhere fast.

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
'cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.
And near death, last breath, and barely hanging on.
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?

till next time. (;

(hopefully, i shall not be confused anymore. sooner or later)

one wish: world peace!(and for my dreams to come true. please, lord?)





whoa, exhausting man.


homecoming and cca open house. met alot of familiar faces and also many individuals whow i deemed had become successful in their career and/or education. tempts me to be at the top level. i realised that anderson is quite rich in history. and decided to leave a legacy in the school. anyways, cca open house looked fine. missed ncc's and npcc's pds. arvin look like a tamil tiger haha. i went up and suddenly i was called upon to do push-ups sia. hidhir's fault la. he wasn't suppose to play with the ball first but yeah' he didn't know. actually, i don't need to do. but wen jie claimed that we're one family and everybody need to do. damn basket. so throughout the event we just showcased our training regime and so the day was dull. did not expect the degree of dullness but it's just not the same. there was something missing. went to have a meal at banquet with sally and natassha. so yeah, that's all. my knee hurts





laterrrrrs.

finally, i've mustered enough motivation to blog with much enthusiasm again.life's been brilliant and i realized that i have nothing to rant about. school's been hectic with the multiple assignments, pressurizing lessons, long days and consistent training sessions. it's really exhausting. i guess sundays will now become the day for me to catch up on my beauty sleep and for me to recuperate from the ongoing fatigue.on another note, i'm like really loving my mom to bits for the mini shopping stint today.gonna totally burn this weekend. cca open house. i'll be gymming, study, beauty sleep, play, religious class, tuition . and i am going to orientate that cycle every weekend.

aaaah body aching like crazy and next week's the first zonal match. brace yourself, team. for wei xuan and aik meng alright? i feel bad for zurah. hope you're feeling better. maybe something new will cheer you up. have faith, buddy.

okay first things first, yours truly is officially 15 years old! haha ok so now i have to be more mature, serious and more civic-minded which is quite ironic cos i've not been like that for the past few days. i was child-like ( drill this into your head!), dumb, arrogant and sore loser. so mind me. i'm sorry i didint reply cos i was slping when you guys literally waited till 12 am just to wish me happy 15th birthday. haha

thanks to the following for the wishes:

my beloved class 3/2, mr fadzly, seri, afiqa, sarah tan shu ling, jun xi, wai kit, hidhir, kak aidah, hazwani, salmah, aqilah, atiqah, si ting, faatihah, adlyn, si ying, arvin, yan ting, hui xiang, instructor wayne, anderson student council, anderson volleyball team and the others whom i missed out.

also thanks to all those people who literally taupok me hard for just reminding them my birthday namely: the ncc gang plus wen jie, the guys from asc and whoever were a part of this painful act that cause me to suffer and forget that you were there too. (;

don't need gifts from you all except friendship and kindness okay. remind me of your birthday too.

anyways im feeling: AWESOME!

the sec 3 adventure camp was superb. i'm happy with my class, the current batch and also the instructors. though there were alot of complications, we managed to settle our differences aside and just go have fun as a class. the intro was baaaaad. as expected when wei xuan warned me the other day. just because of some silly trivial stuffs and we got scolded. bleargh. the reason behind it is probably to pump us up. the instructors attached to us were two gorgeous ladies and one ah beng. lols they're jasmine, chew ping and wayne respectively. too bad they don't know how to pronounce my name. haiya. as always, did some ice brekers by playing blow wind blow. moey always got to forfeit by doing some wushu demo with chee ian. damn funny. wayne is an unusual man. critical, nonsensical but sometimes true, he makes me laugh. it's not because of his jokes. instead, it's his comments. he can be vicious but yeah, very approchable and childish. he taught us the left right back front claps. never heard of it before. then, we played simon says.
i never knew this game could be damn bastard. i was elimnated early in the game cos he said " 3/2 oi' and yeah i sorta fall for that. wayne is so smart la.

" simon says what's your name?"
"darrick...."
"ah?"
" darrick.'
"haha you lose, i didnt say simon says,haha!"

walao, idiot. -.-

a lot of people got eliminated and left with praveena and zhe shuo. they knew his tricks already so he pretended to talk with the camp chief. and he told us that the camp chief wants us to go take our bags. the whole 3/2 take our bags and he suddenly told us that he didnt say simon says.
so nobody win. grrrr. have to applaud him for his clever tricks. can use some of that.

had our lunch then taught us a few cheers like the makan cheer. SA SA SA SA SA SA MAKAN! so coool. then' yadda yadda went to changi by bus. we had to clean the dorm. the 3/2 guys were bored so we pretended that we are having a rescue mission with our brooms, mops and dustbans. hehe after that i can't remember. i only know that we played the low elements like 'all aboard' and 'spider web' . i realised that it is we that made the game so fun. like the camp chief said, you want to have fun it is all up to us.then went to the breifing of how to wear the harness. the camp chief chose the right person for the demo. guess how? wen jie! he made it so exaggerated. the camp chief pulled the string so tight that he felt was excruciating. wen jie claimed that hidhir kept looking at his groin so he took the helmet and covered it. hahaha so funny sia. we practically laugh at the word groin everytime it is said. then had dinner. the food was bit raw. the interior of the chicken is so bloody red. taste nice though. i went for prayers with the malay gang. instructor sheik had us laughing till we got stitches with his indian accent like the lemur from madagascar. thanks to chee ian for bringing that topic up. then we went for a night walk being blindfolded. i'm inpressed at this part cos yeah we helped each other out and depended on each other. we lay our backs on the floor and got mesmerised by the stars.
it almost brought me to tears. beautiful man, beautiful. shower time was crap. everybody were making so much noise with the indian accent. larry was surprisingly okay when i was showering with him. slept even though the engines of the plane were roaring by like nobody's business and you can get crazy with that kind of loudness. luckily i was so clueless about the surroundings when i was sleeping.

day 2 is the highlight man. all the activities makes you drool when you read the schedule. improvised rafting was good though we rushed through the last part. the two groups were needed to present and sell our products. chee ian said his raft is accompanied by some satellite system. gps thingy right? he said barriers instead of barrels. so he crapped all the way la. ours was presented by zhe shuo. then i extra said that it includes aia insurance and 1day warranty. very creative right? right? right? tell me i'm right i think if we tried it out my raft will capsize like titanic. then. went dragon boating. our coordination was lousy man. we improved then had fun playing the viking(something like the ride in the amusement park). didnt have time to capsize. hmph. had lunch and we did our makan cheer. now it is so fun already. the food sucks. npow it is the high ekements! our station was so freaking easy. not even a tad challenging. but nice to see the view from on top. can see batam. then go rock climbing. the guys challenged to do pull up whoever reached the top. everybody failed except zhi xiang. kudos to him man.
then had campfire preparation. we sucked badly. hady confuses us even more. zhou yang was right. just do something simple is better. when there's a camp, obviously there is a campfire. the instructors are so cool. imagine driving a mr bean car with hip hop indian music. for me, i wud imagine arvin doing that with his bling bling. the classes did their item. ours were okay. better than expected. 3/3's were very good. haziq impersonate the camp chief's temper and jokes. he did it very well. and i find that most of the volleyballers are a bit of a disgrace to our ccas. but it is great to see them do the lead roles. justin acting like a bitch at changi village carpark, wen jie dancing like aruna, me did some oldies dance that turned into a breakdance, the 3/5 volleyballers playing imaginary volleyball. very shocking to see justing acting like a bapok. PRICELESS. the teachers were very sporting. ended the camp and watched a slideshow of us during the camp. nicholas and moey were the stars. went to picthed our tents and go sleep.

then comes the the last day. hmmm, quite saddened la. we taupok wayne and splashed him with water. he then told us to wait and use a hose to spray at us. bastard sia. it was damn fun la. being sprayed as a class.3/1 also taupok their instructor. their's got sky-divers to end the taupok. even better hahaha. went back to school and practised for sec 1 camp and yeah was a victim of the taupok people and went crazy during the sec 1 campfire. now im very exhausted and lost my voice. somebody stole it i guess. see ya guys next time (;

my new class is okay, i guess. different personalities. we've got the indon and PRC scholars, chee ian who's the class joker/prankster. hafiz, the future RnB singer, ranjitha the great, brendon, edwin , zhou yang the military band guy and hady. oh, moey happened to be in the same class as me. and larry and poh seng and bei ying and praveena and yu jun and rebecca and zhan rong and... oh geez, kinda forgot the rest. sorry if i missed your name. anyways, they are all nice people. 3/2 looks promising.

well, updating soon. ciao.